You call me out upon the water
The great unknown, where my feet may fail
And there I find you in the mystery
In oceans deep, my faith will stand
The opening verses of the song "Ocean" by Hillsong United played this morning as I was driving into work. So many people, when they see us, ask how the adoption is going. Most of my answers consist of shallow responses. The typical: paperwork, home study, fund raising responses.
What I should say is...
I thought I knew how to swim. I thought I knew what faith was.
He has called us to something that is bigger than us. And it's taking a long time. In my book. Most days I feel like we are out in the middle of the ocean, we've left sight of the shore, the next step in our adoption process could be just over the horizon, but it could also be an illlusion once we paddle over. There could be another storm tomorrow, we could have a few days of calm, we may be unaware that sharks are swimming underneath, some days we see their fins.
But we trust him.
And we keep swimming. And we're getting stronger.
Your grace abounds in deepest waters
Your sovereign hand will be my guide
Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me
You've never failed, and You won't start now